–the problem is, I cant login…I forgot everything!! gawd! haha. I guess I’ll have to make a new blog all over again. *sigh* but I am keeping this one this time.

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I guess my friend was right, Happiness really is a choice…so I guess, I should be happy with where I am now and what I am doing and the things that I am capable of doing beyond what the naked eyes can see. In the end, there is nothing more rewarding than to feel so alive and just be who you want to be…

–but nevertheless, I am wondering…why am i writing this down as a note? i should better blog this down before it gets lost.



And they say that I think too broadly that when it comes to gathering my thoughts, they seem to be so messed up.

And they say I don’t care about anything.

And they say anything wrong about me and get away with it.

And they say that I am dumb, stupid, useless, pathetic, and most of all effed up!

And they say that they are better than me.

And they say I am nothing compared to them.

And they say I should do this but wont even let me try.

And they say that I deserve these things that are happening to me.

And they say these because they think so highly of themselves…well guess what?

That is all you and your pathetic excuse for a brain can do and there is nothing that you can do about it.

I’ve been longing for several things in my life, some are way too pathetic to consider a “want” or even a “thing to want”; nevertheless, these are just some of those “things” that I want to materialize or to have in the next couple of months and believe me, they are all that clouds up my completely insane head.

The list will be on a descending order, hence, from least to the most wanted. So, don’t get confused and all because plainly, the post speaks for itself.  So here it goes, first up…

10. Meeting Carmela. Rey Franco Lago Tolin promised me 2 months ago that he will accompany me to go and see Carmela; Carmela is a tarot card reader; I know, some of you think that its lame to go to a tarot card reader because of the fact that they are just bogus or something. But just so you would know, I’ve been dying to go and meet a card reader and have my cards read to me; its not that I don’t want to know my future and all—its just that, it fascinates me, knowing the fact that these card readers are somehow given the “ability” to know a couple of crazy things about you that some of your closest friend or your closest sibling don’t know. Isn’t it cool to go and meet a card reader or what? Thus, I encourage anyone who knows Carmela to introduce me to her.

Tarot Cards

9. Bungalow. Not that I am asking too much but isn’t it unfair that my father built a mini hotel at our backyard for all of my 5 older siblings and none for me? I get to stay inside the stinking gargantuan bird cage for a house with him and mum. Its not that I am complaining, but would it be nice if I get to have a room for my own; and why a bungalow instead of a stoned house? It’s breezy to be in a bungalow and it’s much easier to decorate—and I love native things too—its lovely!!

bungalow

8. Cebu. I’ve been dying to go to Cebu and back. To Richard and Ma’am Marie, I am not quitting just yet. But I will eventually, but now is not yet the time. For those who read my posts, Richard is my Cousin and is the Ops Manager in the Company I am working with; Marie, is my aunt. I just address her by her first name to avoid discussions and topics of which I am trying to avoid.  So there; So, why Cebu? I just want to visit a friend; and its nice to visit the place were you once played on the mud on and grew up. It brings back memories and it just enthralls me in one way or another…

Sinulog Festival

7. A trip to the Occidental. I always wanted to go to Canlaon and San Carlos—and later Bacolod. Wala lang, I just want to go and visit a couple of friends and tag them along to my real destination and that is Bacolod—where I would also visit someone too. I always wanted to travel to those areas—alone!! Hehe. Sorry boos, I cant tag you along. I think its time for my Hiligaynon friends to spend some quality time with me; I just miss them a lot.

Maskara Festival, Bacolod

6. Panglao Island (or Panglaw, I forgot the correct spelling; wrong spelling, wrong! ). They say the island is amazing. Lots of good things to see and a great place to hang out; its somewhere in Bohol, and its pretty much a couple of hours away from where I am so it wont be much of a hassle to travel to and fro every once in while. Its exciting.

Panglao Resort

5. Siquijor. Ever since we set foot on that island to do some research and create a video documentary for a project, all thanks to Mr. John “DX” Lapid, I’ve been itching to go back to the place and just enjoy the sandy beaches, the sight of lush vegetation (exaj), and just have a great time with a couple of friends;  its such a splendid idea, don’t you think? It would be one of the most memorable Christmas gift ever if you’ll ask me.

A Nostalgic place.

4. Espadrilles. They are just lovely and they are the cutest, most adorable slip-ons that I ever did see—and they don’t even cost that much. I would die if someone would hand me over a pair or two of these beauties. I would wear them wherever I’ll go. Its going to be the next best thing to slippers…and mind you, the 80’s are so coming back!!

Cuties.

3. A few clothes and some jeans. Its not that I totally crave for new stuff but it would be lovely to have new clothes up my rack, right? Hehe. I want to go shopping.

Lurve it.

2. Meet that Someone. Being single is great; no limitations, no obligations, no nothing! But wouldn’t it be nice if you have someone to call your own? Hello, Mr. Someone, I’ve been waiting for you my entire life. Come out, come out, wherever you are.

Where are you???

1. A whole New Year. I may have hinted something somewhere in #8 regarding this matter. Come January, will be my One year of dedicated service to the current company I am with now. And what does that have to do with this wish? Well, I would like to explore—and I would want to experience every bit of what life has to offer me in every way possible. Don’t get me wrong. I want to stay. But staying here, is not the best thing that has ever happened to me. Staying here in Dumaguete makes me feel so isolated still; I want to be away from my family and I want to be me and being here just wont make that happen. They say that destiny is your own personal choice—and I believe it. Thus, I have decided, and will materialize it, even if it takes crying my heart out, I would; just for me to get a taste of what real life is.

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So, there…if anyone gets to read this and would love to materialize any of the 10, you are so welcome.

–> Commander by Kelly Rowland ft. David Guetta

–> first night out with Erin and I would want to dub it as the “hoodie attack”. It was kinda Raining–too bad we ddnt get to enjoy our payag visit (my first payag visit) but it was fun.

–> For the record, you’ve changed.

** sa ma-igo ra.

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